Saturday, November 03, 2007
{ 11/03/2007 11:59:00 PM }
IN THE ABSENCE OF FEAR, THERE WILL BE THE PRESENCE OF FAITH....!!!
woke up every hour since 9plus. soo irritating. so decided to get up, got ready then went online for a while. was about to leave the house already then daddy call and ask if i could meet him at tanah merah and pass him his laptop.. so heavy. -.- at that time was still early so i was thinking i could train all the way to tpy to see if i could meet the cg members. in the end i meet them at newton. lucky didn miss them. lol haha got on the train then we started talking crappy all the way to expo. haha there were vanessa, ruiliang, jaan, john and me. met px at city hall. met jere at expo control station. met junliang at foyer3.
we went to queue. for no reason, jaan and john took my phone and didn want to return. suddenly john became mr nice guy, return my phone back. hahaha lol thanks. :] i took out my cards and wanted to flourish for a while, in the end we started playing 97. hahaha jaan and ruiliang lost twice, john and i lost once. hahaha XPP hilarious man. stupid jaan spoiled my flat's ribbon..!!! -.- went into the hall and sat at the usual place. john, ruiliang and i went to buy drinks. a while later, px, vann and me went to grab some bite. we met steph at foyer 3. service started when we got back. i felt that the message today was like meant for me. i haven have a good night sleep since eveything ended. i had to lie on my bed for more than one and a half hour before i could get to sleep.
every night, when you cant get to sleep, images, good and bad keep flashing across your mind. you couldn get to sleep. its because the spirit of terror, death, fear, evil is haunting you, trying to place doubts within you for someone, for god. giving you nightmares and letting you have negative thoughts of yourself and of someone. its also trying to pull us away from our relationship with god. they will come and steal our faith and vision that is provided by god away from us. i will be turning and tossing on my bed... thinking, thinking, thinking.
solutions for those is have to catalog our victories of the past as armour against the devil. we have to have a defence in our room against the spirit of terror, fear, death, evil giving us doubts of our vision and faith. we got to get up, on the light and keep yourself busy for a while example, listening to songs, surf the net, reading a bible or book for a while.. until you feel that you have the faith and peace to sleep. =} im glad that i had this message. after service, meitong also realise that this message was kinda meant for me as im still in grieve and that at this moment im kinda unstable. she came over to me and talked to me. thanks. i really appreciated that. i felt peace in my heart. :]
we left the hall then went to the food court to meet the cg members and say goodbye as meitong has to go back home and study and i have to go to orchard, paragon to meet daddy and fatty for dinner at a japanese restaurant. yummy. x) we left parargon about 10.20pm. we went to SICC to get daddy things for tmr golf competition. fatty and i went to play house of dead while daddy and his friend went to get drink. hahaha we played for a while as we played all the way to the last stage but couldn complete as we run out of money. lol haha we left there about 11.15pm. im super uber exhausted. lucky didn listen to daddy and bowl if not i will be dead tired. lol haha now im home sweet home. restless. eyes closing, closing, closing, closing.. Zzzz.........
